Just start again

3 Oct

“We must be willing to get rid of the life we’ve planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us. The old skin has to be shed before the new one can come.”       Joseph Campbell  

Pool RemodelTwo young men, wielding electric jack-hammers are working out back.  Their metallic rattlesnake sounds signaling the end of a swimming-pool remodel we did four years ago that just didn’t hold up, and the beginning of a brand-new walkway and Mediterranean blue tile.   We never thought we’d be doing this again, but our goal is to sell our house and downsize…and we want to have done our very best by it!

  The pool was beautiful when it was first remodeled, but that beauty faded and crumbled rather quickly. Poor workmanship? The ongoing Texas drought?  Maybe swimming-pool updates are meant to be measured in dog-years, who knows?  As my Buddhist friends say, “it is the what-isness of the situation.” 

Life is a process – just one thing after another. When you lose it, just start again.”  Richard Carlson, Don’t Sweat the Small Stuff…and it’s all small stuff.

Our feelings  went from “we can’t believe how lucky we are,” to “we can’t believe this happened,” in what seemed the blink of an eye. Tiles cracked (here a crack, there a crack, everywhere a crack-crack!) .  Then fell off. . .a single blue tile shimmering on the bottom of the pool one day…a ribbon of them hanging by a thread the next, poised to join their friend.  The crisp white line of caulk at the top line of tiles mildewed before our very eyes.

100_2876It had become unattractive…but it held water. Her beautiful turquoise ripples still offered us welcomed relief! That pool has been our after-work rendezvous for nine years now.  We sat beside her and planned. Floated in her and dreamed. Skinny-dipped under the stars and the full Moon.  She’s been very-very good to us, so we’re giving her another face-lift.  I know she’s going to look worse before she looks better…but we will pull our chairs up and enjoy her again when it’s all done!

XO Donna

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